I lost meaning of living, of frendship, of love,happiness.
Most of the time when i say things like that,
my friends are all like" what??? why do you think this way?" or " don't say that...life is better than u think".
The problem is, I think that you live in deny, or you're scared of knowing the truth,or u REALLY don't understand what today's life is about. Well, I'm not saying that I do, it's a very complicated, and dark world to understand anything!
However, i understood that everything will end in a bad way,
that evil is in every corner, it will even grow in a precious place:you're heart.
Pffff...I don't know if u really belive me when I say I'm sick and tired of everything
I wake up every morning, hoping for a good day, i come back home tired, aangry, sad.
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I never thought about all this!!!
something took me from the idea of a wonderfull life, of a happy life
and here I am leaving a nightmare.
It's strange how, me, Nour, who laughs like most of time for no reason, thinks of that.
But you don't know the meaning of those laughs, sometimes they're memories of nice moments, sometimes because of the heat(becose, of course, we couldn't even leave the climate in peace ), sometimes I'm thinking and I laugh of how stupid iam of thinking of that(thinking of solutions for problems). (have no idea if u understood this)!
Friends asks me " why the hell do u put the symbol of peaceandlove everywhere!?!"
Well, what do think dear friend???
I know the danger that we live in, and u don't know HOW MUCH IM DREAMING OF PEACE!
THEY (we never know who "they" truly are)say they invented many organisations to maintain peace in the world,
ARE U KIDDING ME??? DO U THINK THAT WE'RE SOME TOYS THAT U CAN PLAY WITH???
I'm litterly getting depressed because of all this.
I never thought i'll feel lonely, and i certainley never thought that it's a good feeling.
I'm scared....how did I become like this???
Even love is getting worst, 'cause its either fake, or for money, or someone could die from a broken heart.
Don't say I'm crazy, it happens. ALL MOST EVERY DAY, I FEEL LIKE AN ENORMOUS WEIGHT "STANDING" ON MY HEART.
can't breath easily, don't want to go out anymore, i want to hide from the world.
About the climate, few days ago, i threw something on the ground, I admit it.
Friends said" Oh nour...didn't u just heard about the global warning??"
Yeah, I heard, so? I don't belive in "getting better".
SICK, SICK, SICK AND TIRED.
LOST MEANING OF LIVING,HAPPINESS,LOVE,FRIENDSHIP.
FEELING LONELY LIKE A DOG.
MY HEART IS HURTING ME LIKE#!!%$.
DREAMING OF PEACE.
Ihave no clue if u understood anything from this article, i just need to write things, 'cause ther's no more place in my head because of all the wondering. sorry for gramar mistakes, or spelling.
